well i thought I'd be the first person to post my story on this board. I was raped at the age of 17 by my then Bf between 8-10th of July 2003 who was living with us at the time.
I met and fell head over heels in luv with this guy who I met thru a friend of the family and was seeing him quite often for about a month or so. He moved out of home and I lot contact with him for six or so months until a week before my 17th birthday I get a phone call from him. Sounds like a fairytale right ??but it was hell Everything was fine and I was still hoh in luv with him and guess that was why I couldn't see what he was doing to me. He was what my psychologist called a sociopath and had a way of coercing ppl into his way of thinking.
He coerced me into allow him to f*ng*r me on one of our many walks down the bike track to the local take away chain in broad daylight - anyone could have seen. But after sleeping in the same bed with me convinced me that he just wanted to be friends so I was thoroughly confused. He slept over my house quite a few times and much to the support of my parents I slept in the same bed with him. Mum in particular saw him as a son and member of the family and that was why it took so long for me to tell her.
After another normal sleepover we both went to bed on the foldout sofabed and I was kissing him and we were just mucking around he f*ng*r*d me which I felt a bit uncomfortable about and I told him to stop quite forcefully and clearly. He took that as cue to insert his p*n*s inside me and R*pe me, taking my confidence with my virginity.I couldn't move, not only was I in shock but I was also pinned to the bed. He used a condomn so he had planned to have sex with me regardless of my consent or not I was in shock and just rolled over and went to sleep as I knew that if I fought him he could kill me
He proudly boasted to my family that when he was 10 years old he broke his mother's arm with a baseball bat. I am a lot smaller than his mother and was scared for my life but part of me still loved him.
That is where I am now with everything I am no longer with him and was in therapy but I'm not ok I don't sleep eating makes me sick and I'm barely coping. That was over 2 yrs ago and I am on sleeping tablets to try and get a good night's sleep.
Don't feel that what you went thru only happened to you because sadly it didn't so many people are hurt because people don't know the meaning of the word no. You are not alone
- Shaz
Lina
Oh good grief!! That is shocking Shaz!! He preplanned it! What sort of a creep is he! How many others has he done this to? You would never know Sweetie.
The shock to your system must have been horrific! As for him boasting of breaking his mother's arm with a bat when he was 10, only a delinquent would do that! His poor mother!
Darling, you must still feel bitter, still feel hurt and shocked. My heart and prayers are with you. You should have gone to the Police, but then, that's why he had the condom isn't it? No proof it was him. No animal would do a thing like that.
And, you are still in shock and bewilderment, that's why you can't eat or sleep.
Blondie Lashes
Dear Shaz,
Thank you for sharing what you have been through! It does help others (like me) to know we are not alone!
I too have to take sleeping medication to get a good night's rest!
I am soooooooo sorry for what this "man" did to you!!!! You did nothing to deserve this, and I know that God is already using what Satan meant for evil for good! God is already using you to reach out to others that are sooooo in need of fellowship with other Christians that have been through similar situations!!!
You are a Survivor!!!! May God give you peace and show you how much He loves you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
