I am a Survivor

New Creation in Christ Jesus Joined: 19 Apr 2007 Posts: 1

I'm pretty sure that I was recently date raped but I am not completly sure how to tell. I am so confused. Why do I feel so guilty. This is my story please tell me what you think. I went on a first date with a guy that I barely knew. We went to a movie and then out for some drinks. I felt kind of pressured to drink by him so I ended up drinking more than I wanted and got really drunk. He ended up asking if he could come to my apartment and I said yes. This is where I start to not remember things. After coming in my door I remember hardly anything until we started to have sex. I remember him asking me if I wanted to, realizing what was going on and feeling horrible but I could not get the words out. Since I was a virgin it started to hurt and I eventually got the words out to stop and that I had never done this before. He then did stop.
I am confused if it is partly my fault I did let him in my apartment. I am so confused. Please give me some advice.