I am a Survivor

Posted: Fri Aug 26, 2005 2:50 am

Oh so many are struggling to forget the past of shock, trauma and bewilderment. So many feel an absolute humiliation, invasion and betrayal. We are looking forward to hearing some of your stories and giving you all the support we can. Please know that whatever you say here will be treated in the strictest of confidence? And, our support and love may carry you through to a new life! Very Happy

Admin Joined: 25 Aug 2005 Posts: 85 Location: Australia

i was going thru a really rough time with my dad and my ex basically told me the night he r***d me that i deserved everything i got and that i was worth nothing. When i confronted him and finally told it was dragged up that i was sharing a bed with him and my past sexual history was discussed ... the past does not give means for the future. I had been taught by so many men that i was worth nothing ... my own father laughed in my face when i told him what perp did to me.

So many people excused his behaviour - the day we confronted him they brought out his employee of the month award to show that an outstanding *supermarket* employee wouldn't dare date R*pe a girl. The same time my life fell to pieces so did his and i used to keep getting updated from my dad who was friends with the family about how *perp*'s life was absolutely ruined because of what i said. I kept doubting myself that it happened and maybe things would have been different had i kept my mouth shut and sometimes i still do.

- Shaz

Posted: Fri Aug 26, 2005 11:51 am

You know Shaz, you have done well to come this far through all this! It's the mental anguish I think which hurts the most. I think you did the absolute right thing to speak out about it. You had every reason to and every right to do that. He is deserving of nothing for demeaning you.
You are Oh so very worthy! I can't understand how anyone can tell a woman she is worthless! A woman is a jewel! She is the life giver of children!
The person who was worthless was the one who raped you! Only the lowest of the low invade and demoralise a woman in such a way. God help them!

Posted: Fri Aug 26, 2005 1:04 pm

Shaz, You are amazing to even have the strength to post! I am so proud of you!

I can relate to much of what you said in your post. My dad sexually abused me as well.

I am currently working on posting my testimony on this site (under testimonies)...my testimony is so darn long that it will take a while for me to post it all....

If you feel you can hanlde it (it may be triggering...I don't know) please read my testimony thus far to know you are not alone in what you have gone through!!!!

Satan meant it for evil, but God can use it for good!!!!!

Peace,

Blondie Lashes

New Creation in Christ Jesus Joined: 26 Aug 2005 Posts: 5

Sometimes being triggured is a good thing because it helps us to be able to release our emotions that have been put away"Hid" for so long. Even burried for some of us. Yeah it hurts a whole lot but tears are a healing prosses. It helps also to have the oppertunities to talk to someone who understands what you are going through. It beats feeling like your all alone in your tourment. May God Be With You All, and Help each one of you Heal as only He can.