I am a Survivor

Posted: Sun Aug 28, 2005 7:21 am

hi this is sister jenna I do not know whether some of you are of the christian forums and read what has been going on with me but here it is This is going to hurt me but it has to be done

I have been through sexual Ab*se in the past and I was an ex self harmer.

I just feel like ending my life my head is so jumbled up. I have only recently become a new beleiver but I just want to go

Please pray for me There is more to the story one day I will be able to tell you all but i have fear of the things it will do to me so I will leave it for now.

Please sticky this and do prayer for me.

Loving Heart Joined: 24 Aug 2005 Posts: 55

Sweet Sister Jenna,

Praise God you are here in the sanctuary of our love. We open our hearts to God and open our love to you. We pray for you now and many will post here to show they care very much.

It may not seem so to you, but if you pray, and read some of the scriptures posted on this forum your eyes will be opened to the truth about who you really are.

Your value and worth as a woman is really high, and your experiences of Ab*se are by those whose souls are dead. They must have no victory over you. Be with us, and when you pray you will join us in prayer for you and others will share their suffering and their hope with all of us.

The Ab*se can become strength because only thru that Ab*se can you truly understand and help so many others. Many readers and guests here cannot post at all, they come here seeking help, but are too hurt to write. Your courage is a sign to them. Our strength is in helping others.

Your sister in Christ,

Latreia

Posted: Sun Aug 28, 2005 1:08 pm

Father I come to on behalf of my sister Jenna and in Jesus name I bind the powers and principalities of darkness that come against her mind and cause confusion and doubts and despair. Father you are not a taker of life but a life giver...I pray you touch Jenna and renew her mind and spirit in you and give her your peace and calm...direct her thoughts towards you so that she will rise up on eagles wings and soar above this time of conflict..
Father we praise you and adore you for what you are about to do in her life and in her healing....you are an awesome God like no other..you are greater in us than anything else...in you we are FREE!!..Amen

Posted: Sun Aug 28, 2005 1:56 pm

Dear Father in Heaven,
Praised be your Holy Name. I pray for sister Jenna and lift her and her plight before your Throne. You Father see all and know all. I pray for this child of your's who has, and is suffering with the trials of life. Father, on bended knee, please hear my plea. Lord Jesus, my Saviour have mercy on this Child and release her from the bondage she is now held in. I pray for the Holy Spirit to Guide her into all good things and that this time of her life will surely pass leaving her a new creature in You.
Father, I pray this Prayer in the Precious Name of Your Holy Child. Jesus.
Amen.

Posted: Mon Aug 29, 2005 9:32 pm

hi me again.

I have been suffering from flashbacks while I am sleeping and it scares me so so much. I just wish I could have a whole nights sleep without being woken up. As it says in the bible that god will give us a sound sleep. But i have been feeling so low and hurting so much. I sometimes feel that he is not here.

Please can you pray for me to overcome my suicidal thoughts and that god is here no matter what happens to me. And for me to wake up feeling afresh and not to let negative thoughts enter into my head.

Thank you
Sister Jenna

Posted: Mon Aug 29, 2005 10:06 pm

Father we bind these su thoughts in the name of Jesus our saviors name...these thoughts are not of you Father...for you are the giver of life and life abundant...Father minister peace to my sister...Father minister a much needed nights sleep to her..that she awake fresh in you..to serve you to her fullest. Fahter we thank you and praise you for what you will do in our sisters life...you are awesome in this place Father...Amen.

Jenna...have you tired chamomile tea b/f bed? Do you take any meds for depression or for sleeping? sleep deprivation can really mess our minds over and exaserbates depression. iIf this persists please seek out your Dr...k...You could be lacking in seritonin and melatonin...and need some assisitance...k

Posted: Tue Aug 30, 2005 12:29 pm

Me again

The thoughts are still there I dont know what to do anymore. The prayers are not working. I have been to my doctors today and he said I have to wait and see the psych team before they can do anything. How long is this suffering going to go on for. I feel that I cannot go on anymore.

Just want to end all my hurt, pain, guilt, anger. etc

Posted: Tue Aug 30, 2005 1:46 pm

Dear Sister Jenna,

I will/am praying for you! I know how dark the hours can be when you don't feel the presence of the Lord! (He is there and does care...He can use your struggles for good!)

Do you have a church that you attend? I would recommend seeking an accountability partner there or if you don't have a church to turn to I offer you to PM me on a daily basis to just check in. Accountability helps so much!

I agree with others to seek medical care as well (I know you are and the wait is long....but it is worth it!) I am finally on medication that is helping me to not have suicidal thoughts! Praise God!!! There is help. It can and will get better....I can promise you that!

The one thing I ask of you is to check in with us daily and let us know how you are doing so we can pray for specific areas you are struggling with. You are no longer alone. We stand with you in this struggle!

Peace and Love,

Courtney

Posted: Tue Aug 30, 2005 5:04 pm

Thank you I will let you know.

I have really had a bad day and still feeling very low.

Posted: Wed Aug 31, 2005 12:21 am

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Posted: Wed Aug 31, 2005 1:01 am

Hi Sis! Do you mind me asking what made your day so bad? (You can PM me if you feel more comfortable doing so)

I have so many questions....do you have a history of depression? Do you have any true friends around (church friends) that can help you?

I am praying for you and I care.... do you mind sharing?

Love,

Courtney

Posted: Wed Aug 31, 2005 9:38 am

Hi courtney

what made my day bad was that I have been suffering from Sexual Ab*se, R*pe, violent marriage. I have had bad days for the past 4 weeks and I have been of work for 3 months. I have not being diagnosed with suffering with depression but I do suffer with anxiety attacks.

I have joined a new church now and they are great I went to prayer meeting last night and gave my life to the lord fully I said the prayer I came out feeling a lot better then when I went in but when i came out I am still the same person.

I know that jesus is there for me Just getting to know him better is all i need to do

Still feeling very very low.

daily feelings for today
upset
angry
depressed
emotional rollercoaster
dirty
fragile
not safe

Posted: Wed Aug 31, 2005 11:04 am

I am not a Doctor Darling one, but have had alot to do with nerve patients, and it appears to me that you are suffering from Nervous Exhaustion. Still praying for you.

Posted: Wed Aug 31, 2005 3:26 pm

Can you recommend what I should do.

What is nervous exhaution and is it cureable

Loving Heart Joined: 24 Aug 2005 Posts: 55

Little One, there is only one cure for you, read all of this carefully:

http://www.iamasurvivor.myfreeforum.org/viewtopic.php?t=150